1345hrs.

Woke up feeling shitty all over again. At 3 am, the same thing happened.

Msg, no reply. I so much want to hear her voice, but yah . . . . . .

Seems like I really cannot get over her, maybe HE wants me to feel this way.

Haven't been doing anything for the past few weeks. Like I say, life is just not complete.

It just like a piece of puzzle that has fallen out. No matter how complete the puzzle maybe, that one particular piece plays a very important role to make the whole picture complete.

Can you comprehend what I say? You know who I am referring to.

The ring with your name engraved on it is still on my finger.

Yes, it may not be a wedding ring, but it has a lot of history for us. I believe you know that very well. We went through alot for 2 years.

Thinking rationally and maturely enough, I think whatever happen between us was something which we could solve no matter how worst things was at that point of time.

If the relationshp at that point of time was hanging by a thread, and true, part of it was my mistake for not giving u all the attention and not being this and that and also because of what happen to me. . . . . . imagine what married life could be like.

Would the wife just leave the husband like that despite what mistakes the husband has done?(I'm not talking about the husband having an affair outside) Or would the wife standby by his husband and slowly change him for the better which the husband eventually did? All of us need someone close to our heart to be behind us in times of need.

There'll be much more challenges than this outside. Every relationshp, I believe at one point of time will go through rocky situation, and even major breakups. But I do strongly believe also that the secret of having a successful relationshp is for both party to just sit and think rationally without any interference.

Out of respect for the relationshp, would resorting to this solve everything? Would running away solve the incident? Knowing that both will perservere after this to make it more worthwhile the relationshp. Would a change of heart be neccessary to solve all this? Be it short term or long term. Sometimes we do make mistakes without realising it, but is it ever too late to make amendments? Is it ever too late to be given a chance? These are some of the questions I ask myself and these questions, I believe this is part and parcel of what a relationshp is like.

Correct me if I'm wrong.

Every relationshp will be rosy at first, no matter how long you've been with each other, but there'll be at one point where there will be hiccups. Ask your parents.

Why do some people last with each other for a very very long time?

If we humans can't overcome this challenges, then how about when each of us get married? Marriage life is in fact much more demanding than this. Besides, it's more difficult and challenging to build up a family than to build up a career.

It'll be different lah if the guy is violent, likes to fool aroud and has a foul temper, den it's justify enough for the girl to leave lah.

I gtg for now. Dah Zuhur lom sembahyang lagi. What come may Izzati, as happy as u r outside, even at this point of time as I'm updating this blog, quietly I am, loving you down here.

I maybe fighting a losing battle. But I will not know if I've lose the battle until I die in the war.

At least I tried.

Take care.

9 more days to my birthday. And the best birthday I can get in my 23 yrs of life is. . . . you know Izzati.

I've change

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