9 May 2008
Time check: 0031hrs

Just got back from soccer. Also went for a short run before that. Feels so good to be sweating it out. I don't care knowing that a few hours from now I have IPPT at Old PA.

I'm stress!!! REALLY!

Nobody understands exactly how I feel. It feels so shitty inside. It feels like . . . . I don't know how to describe. You just need to go through it to understand. I hate this feeling!!!

Damn!! I so feel like shouting now. This is the time when I really wish I have my own siblings to share my problems with.

At times I think I'm chasing after pavements that leads to nowhere. At times I deceive myself. At times, I just act everything is okie.

Tapi Tuhan sajer yg tahu aper yg diraserkan di sini.

I mean for now, I just don't know what's the meaning or definition of the word TRUST. It
just so being misuse.

Even promises. I hate being backstabbed!

And everytime this happen, I just have to go through this alone.

It's a replica. And to you, if you are reading this, I'm sure you know what I mean.

You just had so much effect on me!

Thank you very much.

All I need was a msg from you, but it seems so. . . far. If you know what I mean.

Perhaps, you just want to wait till it's too late. Everything's rosy for you now. You don't care about your surroundings, or at least those people who still care for you.

KARMA.

What goes around comes around. For now, I don't have anybody close for me to relate to. Even at 3am. You crushed me just like that.

But I've forgiven you for all that mistakes. And I have my mistakes too, I won't deny that.

I guess, you are still cold and blinded by love now.

It's as if I never existed. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Take care!

I'm still here.




You are just so different from everybody else

1 more day . . . . . . . . .

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